I made it

Well I'm 40 today, and as one of my colleagues who knows nothing of my past put it yesterday "you actually made it" funny that...... I didn't expect to get past 21 or 30. There seems to be a pattern forming, I will have to look into it or change my life to stop 50 happening :) only joking.

How not to be sad

With views like these in my morning drive I should never be sad.

Its a new day

Why does the thought of a bright new day scare me so much?

Why do we look back?

Why do we look back? I spent too many years both running and trying to get away from my past, but yet on Friday I reverted to the "good old days" as I was going to see some old friends where I was from. Yes we have more good memories of a place than bad in general, but why do we forget the bad so easily in those situations. I'm not saying for us to cling to the bad in any stretch of anyone's imagination. All I am thinking is that it seems so much harder to look forward to a good future than to remember the good parts of a bad past.