un named

today has been quite a struggle, an mixture of depression, confusion and self doubt. Im typing this as quicklyas i can as im doubting everything that i think. the next thought takes over the previous and so on. im crying i have needed to go outside for the past several hours but i cant do it, i have looked out of the office windows and looked at others getting along with their lives, even wandering who could be another of the 1 in 4 of us depressives.
my instict is telling me to cry and hide, i dont know what to do, i hope nicky arrives soon.